second day of majors

Nothing could have prepared me for the amount of readings I would be facing throughout this week. It’s only the second day of the new term and I’ve already got a paper due on Thursday and about eight to ten readings to be finished by Monday. I seriously regret not getting any breaks this term because I am absolutely certain that mental breakdowns are going to be my weekly visitors. I’m taking four major subjects this term and two floating classes. My professors for majors are damn intense. I even got called out by one earlier today in International Political Economy for smiling. He said it was distracting him and that I shouldn’t smile. What the actual fuck. Of course, I was pretty rattled and humiliated when he made me interpret a comic cartoon depicting free trade agreement between Mexico and the US. Obviously, I answered it wrong but I refused to give the satisfaction of seeing me fazed by his attempt at humiliation. 

I have never felt so unprepared in my life. Reading through the syllabus and seeing all the requirements needed is just incredibly intimidating. I don’t know how I’m going to make it through the end of this term. I do know, however, that I would be kissing the Dean’s List goodbye.

As usual, I am heading off to bed without having anything accomplished from my to-do list. I’m dead beat and to be honest, my brain cells could use some regeneration.

urbancatfitters:

i wish i was a cute youtuber but im boring and bad at everything

(via loaning)

empty pizza boxes and late afternoon showers

Hello internet!

Yes, I am very much alive (… and slowly being overtaken by acne, yikes!). I survived finals week and the emotional scarring of the release of grades. As of now, I am on Day 8 of hibernation, otherwise known as term break. I only have three days of freedom before I’m back to the bustle of college life. I’m starting with my majors already, something I’m very much terrified of. My grades aren’t so good. My GPA went down. But I am slowly developing an air of nonchalance towards my schoolwork. Something that I hope would not bite me in the ass later on. 

As I’ve said, it’s my term break and I have spent it like a true student bum, desperately clutching on to sleep and binge watching episodes of Friends and Orange is the New Black as I happily munch away on countless slices of pizza and spicy chicken wings. I have not left my bed before 2 pm since last week, with an exception of going to the mall to pick my friend up for a sleepover. We had a lot of fun binge watching the second of season of Game of Thrones (loser that she is, she hasn’t finished the whole series yet) and actually sharing a deep conversation at midnight and ended at 4 am. It would have been perfect we had some mary jane but we can’t have everything in life. That was some serious discussion about insecurities, hopes, fears and dreams. We were so hardwired, we ended talking about Machiavelli, Hobbes and the nature of man at one point.

Nevertheless, this one week of peaceful rest and bum life shall soon come to an end when my parents get back on Saturday. 

I’ve lost my train of thought for this post due to my friends’ incessant requests to play Kim K. 

Adios, internet. 

further update

Today is a holiday so I got a break from my exhausting classes. My dad arrived last night and after more than a year of not seeing him, mom and I definitely missed him. Of course, my parents decided to spend the holiday shopping for chocolates, food and a year’s worth of toiletries so I was unable to start on the five papers due next week. 

Aside from the overwhelming amount of papers I need to bullshit before the weekend ends, I received an email from the executive committee of the country’s model congress. It turns out I was accepted as a delegate together with 399 others. It’s open to high school and college student leaders nationwide and I was informed that they received more than 1,000 application forms. This is actually a huge surprise due to several facts:

  • it’s my first time to apply for something so serious as a model congress
  • it’s nationwide, for crying out loud
  • I am definitely no student leader
  • I learned about this model congress two hours before the application period closed
  • I sounded arrogant in my application form

In any case, I got accepted and I am definitely very happy. I hope this gets the ball rolling. 

Anyway, finals are coming up next week and I have make-up classes tomorrow and on Saturday which sucks ass. I have five papers to write, one being a final paper about Game of Thrones and Machiavelli, and a final exam for spanish. I really hope motivation finds me so I can work like a robot until I finish everything. I just need to get through the next 7 days as productive as ever.

I shall attempt to start on one paper tonight and hopefully finish all before the weekend closes. 

I feel really bad that I haven’t posted anything for the past two (?) weeks. Papers just continue to pile on top of one another and I was only able to actually be productive today after several days of slacking.

As it happens, I’ve exhausted my vocabary today with a magazine project so this post will end here. Hopefully I’ll be able to post more soon.

Adios, internet.

nitrqin:

I wonder if I ever caught someones attention. Even if I was just walking among the crowd, I wonder if they wanted to get to know me or anything like that.

(via trust)

It’s hot as an oven in my bedroom and I can’t focus on studying for my exams.

There is a really cute guy sitting at the table next to mine and he keeps on looking in my direction. PLEASE BE IN MY SECTION FOR COMMUNITY SERVICE

unburdenin-g:

does anyone else get rly freaked out that they’re an actual person

(via tepidchocolate)

Note to self: If you’re feeling productive, no matter how tired your body is, GO DO SHIT… or else you’ll regret not working the very next day.